Being in a relationship is like digging a hole.
Sure, at first, you can still see the light, feel the fresh air and you're in fact actually enjoying doing it.
As time passes by, the hole gets deeper, and not to forget, darker as well. Problems start arising. Paranoia. Trust issues. Everything becomes suffocating. You can't breathe. You feel the need to get out. You fall and you get hurt. And the longer you are in a relationship, the deeper the hole gets. If things unfortunately didn't end well, you will need a hell lot of time to climb out, searching for the lights again.
Watching my friends around me breaking up with their boyfriends/girlfriends. I can't help but feel that sometimes, relationships seem pretty meaningless. You hurt yourself and you hurt others too. I mean it's great to love and be loved, it's truly a great feeling. But.. is it worth it? It's complicated. Happiness entwined with deep sadness.
As for me at this moment, I have a long healing process more to go and I am only starting to find myself again. Therefore, I shall stay on the ground and enjoy my fresh air and the view. teehee~
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