Have your heart ever felt like exploding due to the amount of pressure and stress and unhappiness you're going through?
Mine did. And it still feels that way.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
I am reporting from UUM, Kedah! =)
Unfortunately, with a sore throat. =(
It has been more than a week since I begun my university life in UUM, miles away from home. Orientation was truly sucky as we were extremely sleep deprived and that pretty much leaded to a bit depression. I just don't understand what's the reason behind making us sleep only 2-4 hours per day. So in the end, I ended sleeping just anywhere I could lean my head against on, no matter how uncomfortable the pose was. =.= yup.. it was that bad, or I merely sleep a lot. hehe.
It's fair enough to say that I am happier here, surrounded by various activities, away from everything that was making me feel so sad for the past few months. However, what I went through has actually set me on my path again, striving and aiming for my career. A passion to explore something new, stepping out from my comfort zone, releasing the other side of me.
But.. every night, before I drift into dream land, it continues to haunt me. Both sweet and bitter memories just replay in my head, over and over again. How could it all happened? The wound that is still fresh. Betrayal that cannot be forgiven.
Even the thought of it, is sufficient enough to make me feel sad, pulling me away from the happiness that I feel. You know so much, yet so little about me. I know you are not to blame, yet what you did was just too much, because I trusted you with all my heart. I hung on to every words you said.
Do you still remember them?
Do you still remember that I once meant everything to you?
The pain that continues to haunt me. The betrayal that I still feel. How could you?
You gave up. You found some one else.
Do you know how much pain you inflicted?
How could you?
Why bother going through everything, when in the end you couldn't care less?
Yes, a part of me hate you. Truly hate you. I really do.
Unfortunately, with a sore throat. =(
It has been more than a week since I begun my university life in UUM, miles away from home. Orientation was truly sucky as we were extremely sleep deprived and that pretty much leaded to a bit depression. I just don't understand what's the reason behind making us sleep only 2-4 hours per day. So in the end, I ended sleeping just anywhere I could lean my head against on, no matter how uncomfortable the pose was. =.= yup.. it was that bad, or I merely sleep a lot. hehe.
It's fair enough to say that I am happier here, surrounded by various activities, away from everything that was making me feel so sad for the past few months. However, what I went through has actually set me on my path again, striving and aiming for my career. A passion to explore something new, stepping out from my comfort zone, releasing the other side of me.
But.. every night, before I drift into dream land, it continues to haunt me. Both sweet and bitter memories just replay in my head, over and over again. How could it all happened? The wound that is still fresh. Betrayal that cannot be forgiven.
Even the thought of it, is sufficient enough to make me feel sad, pulling me away from the happiness that I feel. You know so much, yet so little about me. I know you are not to blame, yet what you did was just too much, because I trusted you with all my heart. I hung on to every words you said.
Do you still remember them?
Do you still remember that I once meant everything to you?
The pain that continues to haunt me. The betrayal that I still feel. How could you?
You gave up. You found some one else.
Do you know how much pain you inflicted?
How could you?
Why bother going through everything, when in the end you couldn't care less?
Yes, a part of me hate you. Truly hate you. I really do.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
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