Yup! I am counting down to the days before I can finally leave matriculation for good! Now, the thought of that definitely brings a small smile to my face no matter how rough my day went. The day when I can finally leave the big gate of Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, and not turning back ever again! Definitely not a drop of tears will fall from the brink of my eye.. Back to my only sanctuary in this world, my room! Home at last! Yet.. the inevitable last challenge -- my final examination, which of course determines my future. Sounds like I am exaggerating but I am definitely not! Like it or not, I definitely need to push hard, and hard *yea i know it sounds like I'm giving birth =.= * and grasp that 4.0 in my hand firmly! or else...............
My future will definitely be going down the drain in the blink of an eye.......... Blink! blink! blink! Gone the dream of being a filthy rich accountant... Nooooooooooooo.............
Gee... I'm not even halfway writing this and I have definitely used the word ' definitely ' SIX times.. No.. add that to the list, SEVEN times definitely! make that EIGHT. scratch that.
I was just reading through the biography of the one and only Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong, the founder of Genting Highlands * Not that we are not aware of.. hee * for the purpose of my Business tutorial homework. At times, it really struck me as inconceivable for one person to built an entire empire with just his bare hands. After all, those billionaires like Vincent Tan, Robert Kwok and others * My memory really sucks * are just humans like you and me! In short, I simply can't imagine that I will ever be like them, definitely not, in the future. I guess honestly I don't really dream big anymore. I will be contented with having a stable, secured, respected and of course a good income job. Yea.. That will do.. I don't really need to be a billionaire. * LOL * But there is just one thing that recently struck me, having a life with all the riches in the world yet having no one to share your happiness is just plain sad. and lonely. Now, that is definitely a gloomy thought.
Anyway, I definitely really salute inspiring people like them for having the guts to bring alive an idea and managed to persevere and finally be who they are today. I guess that is what makes them different from me and you. Do you know the idea of building Genting Highlands was conceived when Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong was having dinner in Cameron Highlands? His history is fascinating in a way.
Oh yea.. I am definitely straying from what I wanted to say initially..
Our life stories are actually just like a story book. Instead of just flipping through the pages, we are living it out in reality, one day after another. So here am I today, just wondering what lies ahead in those pages, what more life experiences will I have to go through, and finally, till the day when the last page of my life will be written. Unlike story books where somehow we just know that the ending will be a happy one or we can simply turn to the last page of the book to see how everything ends, life simply doesn't work out like that. Or there will not be any heartbreaks in life, who is willing to get hurt, right? Though at times, when I feel really down, I wish that I can flip a few pages and skip to the part where I will be happy again. Indirectly, each and every one of us are our own author of our own lives. Some choose to end his or her story short.
In roughly about 6 months more, I will be entering another phase of my life, university life! Another chapter! I am definitely hoping that things will look up then. But the higher you hope, the harder you crush, no? I guess I just want to have an enjoyable university life, having fun friends and simply waking up smiling everyday at the rising sun! * LOL * that sounds a bit wrong for the typical emo mei chien. hee..
I am naggy. Do not complain. hehe. I will just end this post here then. with a full stop. . there! the biggest one! Opps! alright, the real full stop then!
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